Saturday, January 24, 2015

Chapter One - Neuroanatomy 101

    This will be a very basic primer into neuroanatomy.

    And it will give us some insight into what makes a brain - IE: "you" - tick. It will seem quite lengthy, for which I apologize, but there is a lot to get to. If we are to begin better understanding our complex selves - or even our simple selves - it is basic brain functions as understood by current neuroscience that we need to better understand and be aware of. It is my hope that this post will serve as a) a reference for us to refer back to as we go along, b) a reference for your future use and more importantly, c) an impetus and inspiration for further curiosity and reading on your part (if not, I will be doing my best to provide as comprehensive an understanding as possible in the easiest way for us layman to utilize). 

    So here we go, let's dive in.

     First of all, you have in the neighbourhood of eighty-six billion of these:

    That's a neuron and according to renowned neuroscientist David Eagleman, each one - all eighty-odd billion of 'em - is as complicated as a major city (there's an astonishing level of activity that happens in all of your cells, it's just that brain cells take that to a new level). Neurons "encode" stuff. The details of all your thoughts, memories and all your knowledge are encoded in various neurons (for example, there's a "Jennifer Aniston neuron". Honest! The discovery of this is detailed in neuroscientist Sebastian Sueng's book, The Connectome. Whether you have a "Jen neuron" (or any such specialized bit of encoded information) or not depends, of course, on whether you've seen her (or any such person) or not and whether certain brain circuits have "decided" if this person is important to you or not). They pass that encoded stuff along (to assemble bigger pictures or ideas or memories) to other neurons via these:

    Those are axons (sending) and dendrites (receiving), AKA "the wiring". Axons are what make up white matter in the brain - see more below). While brain cells tend to be more (though not completely) permanent, the finer aspects of the wiring is not. Critical connections called dendrites and synapses grow and "prune back" all the time, creating new connections (and thus new memories, learned behaviour and the such) or trimming them back (if a certain memory function falls into disuse for example). As you can see by the number of dendrites, there are many, many connections between neurons (as many as ten thousand per neuron according to some counts!). Dendrites and these multiple, multiple connections are a big part of our mental puzzle. A more realistic depiction of what these connections look like appears like this:

    That bright green blob in the centre of the image is a neuron. Yup, you've got close to ninety billion of those, each one with enough activity within it to be compared to a major city. Imagine the activity of billions of cities going on in your brain (though not exactly all at once). 

    Communication between neurons is sent along the axons in electrical pulses not unlike Morse code. Whether that "Morse code" is sent or not depends on something called action potential, a complicated bit of business which can be boiled down to whether a given neuron or set of neurons reaches a certain threshold of excitement that makes it pass on its message. 

At the point of connection between an axon and a dendrite we have a synapse and at this point the electrical pulse triggers the release of a neurochemical which will pass the message from axon to dendrite and thus onto the next neuron. The details of this transfer, and the synapse itself, look something like this:

    This happens to be for the system involving the neurotransmitter dopamine. You may notice opiate receptors as well, along with endorphins. There are receptors, "uptake pumps", there's a system - not shown - for whisking away excess neurotransmitter material and so on. This operates on a ridiculously delicate balance (we look at this in more detail in the post on the dopamine pathways and serotonin pathways ). There are something like one hundred known neurotransmitters, all of which perform inter-neuron communication in various regions of the brain and all of which are responsible for various functions that drive "you". 

   Look again at that tiny detail. Much of who you are and what you do, not to mention all your memories (some theories on long term memories posit that memories exist in our synapses), depends on that infinitesimally small chemical transaction. Now get this; your brain has somewhere around two hundred and fifty trillion synaptic connections at any one time all performing those little chemical transactions. And to put that number in perspective, in just a few cubic centimeters of cortical tissue you have more synaptic connections than there are stars in the Milky Way (David Eagleman's Incognito). 

Neurotransmitters are the main focus of pharmacological psychiatry so we'll be revisiting what goes on here in more detail in future posts (see the above two posts on dopamine and serotonin).

    The dopamine system and pathways happen to be one of the most studied and well understood and it is also widely implicated in schizophrenia and bipolar disorder (and many addictive behaviours as it turns out). The dopamine pathway looks roughly (and I do mean roughly) like this:

    As you can see, there are all kinds of key brain regions included in the loop. And what's this? Our "planning and judgement" centre is a destination? Yuppers. A lot of what you "think" is "good planning and judgement" may well be just your primitive brain reward system sending an emotion generated "good feeling" message to your "command centre". And this diagram just represents the dopamine pathway. Remember, there are over a hundred different neurotransmitters at work throughout your brain all governing - way below your conscious control - various functions going on in all those billions of cities in your brain. 

    Let's return to the "wiring". There's "local" and "long distance" wiring. Local wiring in the mammalian neocortex looks something like this (and this is a greatly simplified drawing). It works in layers and each layer performs a slightly different level of function (from Sebastian Seung's The Connectome). 

    Long distance wiring is longer axons that form "bundles" (the white matter mentioned above). This wiring connects the different brain regions. It is believed by some neuroscientists, such as Sebastian Seung (linked to above), that it is the unique wiring we each have between our brain regions - or "connectome" - that is responsible for much of "who we are". A basic "wiring harness" looks something like this:

    The brain and its wiring is not, as once thought, "set" once full neurological adulthood is reached (about age 25). As mentioned, axons and dendrites grow and prune back depending on the demands, or lack of them, put on a region at any one time. This falls under the general heading of neuroplasticity, a term that describes the malleability and changeability of our finest (and we're talking very fine) and even major brain structures. 

No two "wiring harnesses" or connectomes in people will be alike. They will form differently from birth and individual life experiences and environments will alter the course of their development throughout life. There is mounting evidence that differences in white matter connections - these "wiring bundles" - may play major roles in many psychiatric disorders.

   I introduce and talk more about neuroplasticity in this post,  but for now it's important to know that this plasticity can be good (the brain changing to adapt to a major change such as blindness) or bad (adapting to a harmful behaviour or practice (brought on usually through negative experiences or environmental conditions)). And that wiring? You have, in that small space between your ears, enough wiring to wrap around the world - twice. 

   Aside from "direct wiring", we also have various brain wave oscillations that appear to play important roles in producing or attaining certain states of consciousness, sleep activity, memory consolidation and more. These have very Greek names like Theta, Delta, Beta, Alpha and Gamma. We can think of brain wave oscillations as a sort of "wifi" in the brain that allows more instantaneous and widespread communication and cooperation between distant brain regions. Imagine it like being at a rave with strong pulsating electro-pop music pounding through the speakers and thousands of individual minds all tuning into that frequency and moving in unison. It's also been proposed that our highly (and uniquely among the animal world) pre-frontal cortex uses these "neural rhythms" like a "quarterback" to direct and coordinate activity in the brain.

    Back to the wiring, it does not end in the brain of course. The wiring includes the central nervous system and connects every square centimeter of your body to your brain, something like this:

and this:

    These are not only to send messages to muscles to move and to receive information in return or to receive and send pain signals (and we'll learn that this is a two way street) but are also part of a "full systems" monitoring program that is constantly testing what's going on in, as the latter diagram shows, your major organs. We'll be examining this in more detail as well when we learn more about the mind-body connection and how, for example, what goes on in your stomach may affect your mental health. For that matter, what goes on anywhere in your body is going to affect your brain in some way.

    Aside from neurotransmitters, there are also hormones involved, such as the stress hormone cortisol. Its pathway looks something like this:

    The stress response system is based on our primitive brain "fight or flight" response to perceived danger (and the term "perceived" is very pertinent here. How we perceive danger is one of the things that gets out of wack in our brains outside of our conscious control. Phobias fall under this category, among many others including anxiety disorders, depression and even schizophrenia). This system is essential to our survival but what's important to understand now is that this system evolved for fairly simple dangers like a saber-toothed tiger eyeing you for dinner. In our modern wacky world the concept of "danger" and our response to that is way, way more complicated and this system is often put under extreme duress and it is situations of extreme duress that many mental health problems arise. 

   I cannot overstate the importance of the stress response system when considering both acute or chronic mental health disorders or situations. I introduce the stress response system in this post  and that will eventually be a four or five part series as we try to understand this system's enormous effect on our behaviours and reactions along with our physical and mental health.

    There are of course numerous hormones that greatly influence our behaviours and "who we are". Some are quite familiar to most of you - testosterone and estrogen for example - but we'll look at others as well and more importantly look at better understanding the roles these play in what we do and why we do them (or not do certain things). 

     And in among all those neurons and wiring are glia cells. Neuroscience only recently began discovering the enormous importance of these "support cells". Once thought only to be supporting cells in a literal sense (like scaffolding), it is now known that glia cells - microglia, astrocytes and oligodenrocytes - play absolutely essential roles in all aspects of neuronal communications. One critical role is in supporting the growth of the myelin sheath, a protective coating on axons (the breakdown of myelin is thought to play a role in MS). When we look at neuroplasticity, we'll learn more about the enormous role synaptic formation and pruning plays in memory and learning functions and glia cells are a vital fundamental part of this process. As well, they are involved in supplying nutrients and oxygen to neurons along with various "clean up" duties, whisking away toxic waste material that are produced in normal cellular function (like any cell, nutrients go in, waste comes out). Recent research suggests that among the reasons we need to sleep is that glia cells need the brain to be in a resting state for them to perform many of their functions (most critically, it appears, the essential house cleaning duties they perform). Glia cells look something like this:

    Isn't this just the funnest stuff?! I love this stuff! Let's carry on. 

    Reptile brains, then higher brains followed by the mammalian brain, then the early hominid brains and finally the modern human brain evolved over millions of years. Each was basically bootstrapped off of the more crude and ancient reptilian brain. The limbic system evolved next and then, as mammals came on the scene, the neocortex evolved (or mammals came on the scene as the neocortex evolved I suppose). Thus our basic brain outline looks like this:

    That big reptilian brain blob at the back of the brain is the cerebellum. That's where body movements are coordinated, where your abilities of balance and body posture are held and equilibrium is controlled (and more recent research shows that it is involved in coordination of many higher cognitive mental activities, most notably, musical abilities). If you're not super graceful, blame this region, not yourself. The limbic system is where a number of major control centres reside, including, but not limited to, the aforementioned amygdala, the hypothalamus (the control centre for many autonomic functions), the hippocampus (involved in memory forming, organization and storing) and the basal ganglia (or basal nuclei; involved with a variety of functions, including voluntary motor control, procedural learning related to routine behaviours or "habits" such as bruxism, eye movements, cognitive and emotional functions).

     Better understanding how these major regions control who you are and your outward behaviour and decision making processes is going to be a big focus of our exploration of mental health and behavioual issues. 


    Finally, we have the neocortex. This is divided into major regions that look something like this:

    If you'd like to know where "you" are thought to be - the seat of human consciousness and awareness - that's in the frontal lobe. We'll have much fun examining how much - or how little, perhaps I should say - that part runs your life. And do you see that part called the occipital lobe? That's where you "see". Our eyes merely collect light. That live action movie that takes place when you open your eyes gets produced, edited (yes, whatever you may think, a lot of editing takes place of what your eyes take in) and assembled mostly in your occipital lobe and which then presents the final cut to "you". 

    The neocortex is where the responsibilities of our higher functions lie. The neocortex is divided into a dizzying array of specialized functions. This is a short list but all areas of thought and cognitive functions will have a corresponding brain region that looks roughly (and again, I do mean roughly) like this:

    These represent just a small handful of examples and are only roughly located in this diagram as the areas are presently understood (neuroscience is making new discoveries all the time so none of the exact specifics of these locations are set in stone but the basics are well understood and agreed upon). How "good" you are at any particular activity will basically depend on a) how well developed a particular region is (say the Brodmann and Wernicke areas of language, for example (roughly "speech production" on the chart) or something more rudimentary like your cerebellum as we saw), b) how well the wiring is developed between your regions and c) how your particular neurochemical pathways perform. 

    It's somewhat more complicated than this but these three - the brain stem, limbic region and neocortex - are well understood to be the basic components. How well or not well all these function in you is also going to be a big focus of our exploration of disorders and behavioural difficulties 

    That our brain regions and the connections between them (the "connectome" mentioned and illustrated above) are all different puts a whole new meaning on "smart" or "talented". "Smart" or "talented" is just a blessing of various regions being better proportioned and wired for a given task and you accidentally discovering the use of these regions (or more likely having them discovered for you). If you're a math "genius" and make a living from that, for example, you can climb down off your high horse and thank your lucky stars that you were gifted (and we'll see what "gifted" really means ... nothing to do with "you" I can assure you) with highly developed regions specific to math tasks (nature) and that they were discovered and developed (nurture, which strengthens the connections, or wiring, between these regions and the rest of your brain). Many people may be similarly gifted but tragically never discover these gifts (and we'll see that undiscovered geniuses may be at this very moment living in the slums, for just one example, of Lagos, Nigeria). Others may not be so gifted but are cursed with high desire (or being driven by well meaning but ill-advised parents) and thus tragically beat their heads against the wall (and beat up on themselves) trying to do something they were simply not endowed to do. This is very important in understanding "who we are" and why are that way.

    All of this, the billions of neurons, the trillions of synapses, the dozens and dozens of specific brain regions, the hundreds of thousands of kilometres of wiring that tie it all together and the more than one hundred neurotransmitters, hormones and proteins that make it all communicate, harmonize to make up this - your brain:

   The brain from any healthy adult will look like the one pictured above but here's something to consider, and is the essential foundation to what we will learn about brains - no two brains are alike. They are as unique as fingerprints. All those regions are connected slightly differently between us as well as some regions being better developed or activated and some not so much (which can be long term or short term), the wiring is slightly different between us and so on. This is, as I've pointed out, determined by genetics and environmental factors, with a strong emphasis on environmental factors. Even identical twins (of which I am one) who start out genetically identical will develop quite different brains (as a twin myself, and because twin studies are so fascinating, we'll try to get to twin studies at some point).

    The brain collects "data" through the five senses - sight, sound, taste, touch and smell (and we now know that there is a critical and major "sixth" sense - our gut-brain connection) - runs this data through various brain regions and create the "reality" we perceive in our minds. Because our sensory organs and brains are all genetically different (with the exception of twins) plus are wired and developed slightly differently, we will all have different "versions" of "reality". This is why we find it hard to agree even when we're both looking at the exact same thing (like two people seeing a spider for example. One may look on with fascination and curiosity, the other will have a phobic melt down).

    This is going to be a critical part of our examination of human behaviour and the brain. Obviously our differing views of realities - and we have very, very little conscious input into what these are (or exercise very little as we'll see) - is going to create very different views of the world and thus behaviour. "Reality" is one of the great philosophical questions of all time and, as it turns out, crucial to understanding the human brain and our inward and outward "selves" and, most importantly, how all our widely varying "selves" get along with other "selves". I have many ideas, thoughts and views that it is how our brains create the "reality" that we experience that are at the root of our mental health woes. And not only that, but it may be that there's nothing really wrong with our version of reality, per se, but that it doesn't fit in with standardized models of "reality" and it is this ostracizing that creates our mental anguish. 

    A huge thing to understand is that all these components we've looked at run a mind boggling number of subconscious "programs", what Eagleman calls "zombie programs" and it's your particular collection of zombie programs (we all vary in these though some are quite standard) that run "you". No, "you" don't run "you", all these automated zombie programs - programs that run through all those neurons, wiring via electrical pulses, neurochemicals and hormones (to put it very basically) - run "you". Zombie programs are all your daily routines that you don't need to think about in addition to all kinds of other little programs that push you forward through life. 

    All those "conscious decisions" you make are almost certainly to be the result of various zombie programs spitting out, for example, the "decision" to buy a new car (which is just a glorified modern variation on ancient hunter-gatherer instincts) or take a new night class or pick a certain supermarket product over the others and so on. Then your dopamine reward centre gives you a "hit" of happy feeling dopamine to "reward" and "re-enforce" this behaviour. Then your brain creates a post hoc inner dialog to justify or rationalize this "decision".

     Learning more about these subconscious systems is going to be a huge part of our undertaking in understanding why we are the way we are and what's going wrong. 

    Phew! Wasn't that fun?! And that was just the very basics. In future posts we'll look at most of these parts in more detail. We could think of all these parts as pieces of a puzzle that we are putting together. The completed puzzle is a biological computer of such dazzling complexity that human language is inadequate to completely describe it. For every second of every moment you are alive, your biological computer - your brain - will be performing an astounding number of functions, virtually all of which are outside of your conscious awareness, let alone control. In fact, as I've already alluded, we will see how astonishingly little control we have over who we are and what we do (though once we understand why that is it'll be far less astonishing and the only way we could possibly operate and get through life). 

    But perhaps more importantly, we'll learn more about just what kind of control we do have. And this is going to be where "the rubber meets the road" in this blog - learning better how to control your amazing and beautiful brain. 

I promise that not all posts are going to be so science based and detailed. But in order for you to understand what's really going on in you and more importantly how to change it, being familiar with at least some of the basics of what's "under your hood" is very useful. So we're going to slog through more similar posts examining things in more detail. I will do my best to make it fun, though. 

And I promise, there will be no tests so don't worry about memorizing all of that. :)

If you would like to know more about a different understanding and approach to mental health disorders presented in this blog, please see more at the Taming the Polar Bears Table of Contents and Reading Guide

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Return of the Bears - Introduction

This will just be a rough outline for the introduction of the new and what I hope to be an improved version of Taming the Polar Bears

To put it as briefly and concisely as possible, the purpose of this blog - which will mirror my book in progress - will eventually be as much as possible all the information I wish I had access to when I first realized I had a serious mental health issue and entered the mental health care system here in the Greater Vancouver region of British Columbia, Canada. 

My condition and life became immeasurably worse for no other reason than simple ignorance. I was mishandled by virtually every one of the eighteen psychiatrists that handled my case at various times. No one in my family or wide circle of friends knew what to do, what to say or how to handle my downward spiral. All along the way, instead of help I found instead copious amounts of misunderstanding and ignorance that greased the skids of my sickening decent into mental health hell. I ended up losing virtually everything I owned, worked for and built in my life, including at various points virtually every one of the dozens and dozens of great relationships I'd cultivated over a lifetime (now that things are going better, some are coming back but they'll never be what they once were). 

I ended up virtually crippled by my condition, unemployable and virtually cut off from greater society. 

And all of it completely unnecessary, completely avoidable, completely preventable. I simply did not have to end up as I have (though I am now finally beginning to climb out of the hole I plunged into). 

Everything that I'll put into this blog (and coming e-book) is what could have prevented my case becoming what it became. 

What was shocking, when I started my research, was how many cases there were like mine and even much, much worse than mine. Tens of thousands of people ending up ostracized from society, unemployable, estranged from their families, often ending up on the street and their mental abilities decimated. Thousands commit suicide every single year. 

And all virtually 100% preventable. 

My mission is to everything I can within my means to reduce and dispel the ignorance and the myths in order to reduce the numbers of people whose lives are ruined due to mental health issues they did not ask for and to reduce the suicides that come as a result. 

About the Name

"Taming the Polar Bears" comes from the book Taming Bipolar. One night while reading it when my mind was feeling particularly bombed out and my vision blurred, the title looked to me like taming polar bears. I wrote this down in a forum I was participating in, someone caught it pointing out that they liked the mistyping of the title and the term stuck for referring to taming my personal demons. When I started this blog five years ago, it was the natural choice of title. 

My demons are all those associated with living with bipolar disorder and, it turns out, a bushel load of other disorders as well, such as Borderline Personality Disorder, Major Anxiety Disorder, psychosis and psychotic episodes, and major, major depression (they seem to take turns). But Taming the Polar Bears could apply to whatever your personal demons are. I will address the major ones (schizophrenia, bipolar, various depressive disorders, anxiety disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder and heck, maybe even the ubiquitous "ADHD", all of which I have some level of personal experience with).

So whatever your demons are, there'll be something for you to help you tame them. 

Who the Hell is Bradley Esau and Why Should You Listen to Him?

I am not a doctor. I am not a psychiatrist. I am not a psychologist. Those are three pretty good reasons to hear and read what I have to say. For reasons I'll outline as we go along, none of these professional groups (or "professional") have much of a clue as to what they're talking about when it comes to serious mental health issues. I am aware that there are exceptions but the vast majority of them do not. There are reasons for this and it's not because they are bad people (though the laws of average dictates that some of them are). It has more to do with how the powerful pharmaceutical industry and lobby hijacked how we look at and treat mental health disorders starting about in the sixties. As doctors and psychiatrists are the only groups licensed to prescribe medications, they fell in lock step with and close alliance with the pharmaceutical industry (this is not conspiracy stuff, it's just the way people tend to hook up and do business). 

Psychology has long been sort of lost and were long ago shouldered aside when it came to dealing with difficult disorders such as schizophrenia, bipolar, major depressive disorder, major anxiety disorder and so on. There may be the odd bright bulb that has the training and mental acumen to help out, but the odds are against it. And even if you do find one, they run around $150 an hour or more (some will offer compassionate discounts of 50% but ... well, you do the math). So aside from being innately inept, the pricing of psychological counseling puts it well out of reach of all but the well heeled and thus likely anyone who suffers a serious disorder. There are sometimes group sessions that are affordable or even free but the quality of these vary greatly and these are generally only of benefit to the "low hanging fruit" (IE: the easy cases). 

There is a growing body of research and evidence to show that peer to peer counseling works best. After all, nobody is going to understand how it feels and how to deal with, for example, being driven batty by hearing voices or hallucinating than someone who's been there and tamed those beasts (or polar bears). 

Peer to peer counseling is out there but hard to find and harder yet to find something that applies specifically to your personal demons (or polar bears). 

Which brings us to moi. I know what it's like do live with, deal with and tame the beasts, the inner demons. I don't just read about them, I don't just get some training in them, I don't view them through the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual, I don't have to try imagine what is going on. I live them. 

This gives me an insight into what these mental tormentors do to you that no health care professional can have. They're trying to guess what's going on in your head, I KNOW what's going on in your head (or at least have a very good idea). I know what it's like to hear voices, hear commands, hallucinate, experience psychosis, be incapacitated by depression, be horrendously suicidal, be locked up in psychiatric institutions, battle with doctors, lose everything as a result, be virtually completely incapacitated by the crippling fatigue that can result, feel the full horror of stigma and social isolation and all that other fun stuff. 

So there's that. 

But I am also a scientist. Oh, not a lab coat wearing scientist with a shiny degree from some institute, but a scientist nonetheless. I am part of a grand tradition that stretches back to the very beginnings of science - the amateur scientist (up until the beginning of the previous century, the majority of significant discoveries and advancements were made by amateurs). I am blessed with both being an autodidact (which essentially translates into a voracious and highly adept self-learner) and a genius level IQ. 

I flunked almost every science in high school but once I escaped that dismal straight jacket of learning, I have self-studied science ever since. I consider some of the top scientific minds in the world my mentors and my bookshelves are lined with the works of names such as Carl Sagan (sadly since departed), Daniel Dennett, Richard Dawkins among many others. 

Two years ago, when I took it upon myself to learn what's really going on in our brains when we suffer all these things we go through, I took up neuroscience. Being blessed with the form of bipolar mania that allows rapid understanding and clarity when taking up a new pursuit and a long background of scientific reading, I took to neuroscience like a duck to water and am considered by a good number of those who know me and my studies to be somewhat of an authority in the study of neuroscience. 

I am also ruthless and relentless in searching for the truest, best, most recent and most relevant science when it comes to our disorders. I have absolutely zero tolerance for bad science or "science" performed in the name of corporate or personal gain (hello there, pharmaceutical industry and the American Psychiatric Association). I can be very unpleasantly blunt when dealing with people who propagate bad, flawed or corrupted science. I also have zero tolerance for anyone - that would be anyone - who fucks over anyone dealing with mental health issues and the long term consequences of such. 

I can assure you, almost guarantee you (I cannot offer a full guarantee because that would be intellectually dishonest), that I will use the absolutely best sources of science available. I will list my main sources in a separate post. 

I have cultured a number of writing styles; sometimes scientific, sometimes in the language and style of the layman. I try my best to make everything I know and have experienced accessible to as many people and as broad a reading audience as possible. 

I pull no punches, I have no sacred cows, I spare no one. I don't, in other words, peddle bullshit. I don't do shiny-happy rose coloured I'm okay-you're okay it's all gonna work out alright bullshit. If you've spent any amount of time in the mental health care system and around well meaning but tragically ignorant family and friends, you've already gotten way too much of that. Bookstores and the Internet are full of that. If that's what you like, there's no shortage of that. This blog is not that. I tell it like it is. 

Yet I'll probably offer more hope than you can find almost anywhere. I just offer a different definition of hope. My hope isn't pie in the sky dreamy "I hope it all works out" hope, my hope is based on bleeding edge neuroscience and what's really going on in your brain and how to reverse/correct/improve it. 

I will give you views of mental health disorders and the lives affected by them that you will either find nowhere else or would have great difficulty finding elsewhere. 

It is difficult to find anyone who doesn't have a vested financial interest in the current mental health care system who thinks it's working. The mental health care system is not working. The numbers speak for themselves. There is virtually no evidence from long term studies that show pharmacological treatment "works". There is virtually no evidence that there is a specific "chemical imbalance" responsible for any given disorder that can be effectively targeted by a specific drug. All evidence and recent research points to a wide number of factors. Your doctor, psychiatrist and likely even psychologist (a field so devoid of cajones that they just nod along with their prescription writing brethren in psychiatry) will not tell you any of this. 

This blog then tells you, as much as practically possible, what the doctors will not or cannot tell you (as the subheading says). 

I'll also say that I probably take mental health issues more seriously than anyone you know or are likely to meet, including anyone in the mental health care system. 

I take them seriously because an inordinate number of people die every year for no other reason than no one understood what was going on with them. A number of people many times greater than that have their lives ruined because no one understood what was going on with them. A number of people that is completely and utterly unacceptable end up on the streets for no other reason than that no one understood what was going on or helped them. 

This is not because they had an "incurable disease". It's because from the get go they were surrounded by ineptitude, ignorance, denial, societal stigma and outcasting and flat out mistreatment at the very hands of the "professionals" charged with their care. 

I was - and remain - one of those so affected by the mental health care system. 

So not only do I have a personal problem with that, my massive empathy centre has an even bigger problem with that happening to tens and tens of thousands of people for no good reason at all. 

And few people give a shit because the mentally ill are one of the three most stigmatized demographics in the world. Don't even remotely imagine that our "modern" society has an enlightened attitude towards those with a severe mental health condition. In fact, all recent research and study points to it getting worse. 

So it is my hope that this blog will go some distance towards putting even a tiny dent in reversing the stigma and mistreatment of those with mental illness. 

What You'll Learn

If you or a family member has a severe or even moderate neuropsychiatric disorder (a term which I favour over "mental illness" and will likely use the majority of the time), then you have a lot to learn. My mission is to help facilitate that learning. My mission is to help teach you how to learn. My mission is teach you how to view neuropsychiatric disorders. In my wide and deep reading and experience, I see little evidence that anyone gets any of this right. Misinformation abounds. Myths, rumour and misconceptions rule over science. It's a nightmare out there for finding out what's going on and how to deal with it. My mission is to cut through the bullshit and deliver the straightest goods possible. 

In other words, we're going to explore everything there is outside of mainstream psychiatry's views, outside of what you can find on popular media and so on. 

But to be clear, I do not associate myself with "alternative medicine" and the charlatans that lurk there. I also do not do conspiracy theories. 

We'll explore the many possible causes to mental health disturbances (and often, that's all they are - disturbances in normal or optimal mental functioning, and often just temporary) along with many approaches to dealing with them. 

We'll explore much about the human brain and what goes on in there and why. 

We'll explore societal, family and economic factors involved. 

We'll explore how family and friends can better support someone going through either an acute or chronic mental health crisis. 

We'll explore both short and long term strategies and lifestyle choices. We'll learn that there are many choices not discussed with you by the above mentioned "professional" groups. 

There will be quite science bases posts, there will be more essay/op-ed like posts and there will be personal posts. It'll all help you understand, it'll all help you fill in pieces of your or a loved one's personal puzzle. 

That is all for now. 

If you are a new reader, welcome to Taming the Polar Bears and if you're a long term reader, welcome back. 

As this is going to be a blog version of my book, to get the most of it I'd humbly ask that you subscribe. It's a painless procedure, I can assure you. :)

Thursday, January 8, 2015

The Nine Hundred Foot Jesus and a Man on the Street

Nine Hundred Foot Jesus and
a Man on the Street

In 1977 I graduated high school. It was also a year in which I renounced religions of any kind and embraced science and began paying more attention to the claims made by con men and charlatans in the name of faith. As such it was during that year that a story caught my eye - a man announced publicly that he'd seen a vision of Jesus that stood, so he said, nine hundred feet tall. One would think this would be a rather frightening sight but not to this man. The nine hundred foot apparition – close in height to a hundred story building – had something to say, specifically to this man. It – I'm not quite certain we can say “He” in the usual usage of that capitalized pronoun - had a very special message for this man; to raise funds for and erect a special building.

That man was Oral Roberts and he told this story on his syndicated television program. His flock was so inspired and so eager to follow the plan as “instructed” to him by this gigantic apparition claiming to be “Jesus” that Roberts was indeed able to raise the considerable funds needed to erect the building of his (Jesus'?) vision (what would become, temporarily at least, the City of Faith Medical and Research Center (it closed 1989 eight years after its opening).

Many years later a man I'll call John had a similar vision, or at least he saw a vision of Jesus and just as with Roberts all those years earlier, this vision had a message and instructions for John, a message of peace for mankind and John was to deliver that message through the media. It (the vision) gave John specific instructions to follow which entailed him asking various media outlets to allow him radio time to deliver this message. John – just as Roberts was (or claimed to be) – was greatly moved by this and tried his most earnest level best to follow the instructions he was given. He was God's messenger – through Jesus – and as a devote believer he was determined to carry out those instructions. 

But this man was considered a "sick" schizophrenic. 

What's the difference between these two remarkably similar stories of religious visions?

If the comparison sounds facetious, it is not. And indeed I am not the only one who sees a comparison between symptoms we see in mental illnesses and behaviours we see in extreme religiosity such as having or claiming to have had the visions described above, renowned neurobiologist Robert Sapolsky has made similar observations and drawn similar conclusions as outlined in this lecture at Stanford University. What makes one story “believable” and the other a “symptom” of schizophrenia has less to do with the visions themselves and everything to do with the differing circumstances of the two men.

John, you see, was a homeless man who pushed a bicycle around the streets of Vancouver and who earnestly tried to get people to listen to his story of Jesus talking to him and giving him instructions to spread the word of Jesus. I met John in my capacity as a volunteer at a charity organization that helped the homeless and those battling mental health issues near Vancouver's notorious Downtown East Side.

I make this comparison to illustrate how arbitrarily we apply “mental illness” symptoms such as visions and hearing voices. One man sees a vision and hears commands and he's revered. Another man experiences the exact same thing and he's shit upon by society, reviled and ignored.

The pain in John's voice, along with a genuine bewilderment, as he related his story and that no one would listen to him was palatable. There was visible anguish on his face. I could well imagine that pain of rejection he experienced every day as he sincerely pursued carrying out the instructions given him by his visions and commands.

So why are essentially the same experiences treated so differently? And they are the same experience as far as pure brain functioning goes (if indeed Roberts' claim was genuine and not a deliberate creation in order to fleece his flock of funds).

So why don't we change perspectives? Let's imagine each Roberts and John in a different light.

What if we put John in different circumstances? Let's clean him up, feed him and put some meat on his bones and a “wealthy” look on his face. Let's put him in a position of respect where people trust him and what he has to say. Let's then see his confidence and self-assurance grow. Let's envision him telling his story to a congregation. Do you still think he'd be regarded as “schizophrenic”? I'd wager a year's wages that he would not.

Now let's take Roberts (before he expired, of course), strip him of his fortune and TV ministry flock and put him on the street until he was haggard looking. Then have him tell his story of his nine hundred foot Jesus and its instructions and asking for money. I don't think I need to spell out how his story would be received then.

There is a broader story here with a long history, one that I will not be able to get to today but it is a theme I'll be either poking away at – or hammering at – as we go along in this blog and explore the definitions and perceptions of both mental illness and those “diagnosed” with such.

If you think the lines are sharp, you are badly mistaken.